I want to remember some sweet moments today. First I did a big nono in the mom world and took the boys to Target to get t-ball coach gifts when I hadn't eaten at all. It was right after Jase had eaten and was happy so off we went at about 1:00pm. We browsed Target and got a few things we needed but the boys were kind of wild. To give Max credit, he kind of listened but Ryan wandered off on me and they wouldn't stick with me. To top it all off Jase started crying and could not be consoled. So I was trying to hurry and buy my stuff so we could get out there and I became
that mom, the one who can't handle their kids and loses patience. I grabbed Ryan by the arm and pulled him over roughly because he kept going over to the other cashier's area, and even Max didn't listen at the end when I really needed him to. I left the store crying with frustration as Jase is still crying. In the car, I let the boys know under no uncertain terms how angry I was. Max started to cry and even Ryan started to whimper. They
knew how frustrated mom was. I can definitely think of about 20 ways I could have handled things better, but when we got home they were to go directly to their rooms (Ryan in the guest room) for a long, long time out. So the part I WANT to remember was when Max called out to me, "Mom, I said a prayer and asked Heavenly Father to forgive me for not making good choices". That melted my heart. I also needed to apologize for not taking care of myself so that I had so little patience. I want to look at the bright side of today and remember that my little 5 year old reminded me that we can ask for forgiveness and move on.
